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Happy day!

2011-12-18T00:27:00.003+08:00

Happy 2 years and 5 months love! Sayang you always <3

A thing we always do.

2011-12-16T02:46:00.002+08:00

I miss you and us cooking with each other. How we fought over small things while preparing the meal. How you prepared all the ingredients and put them ready on a plate without asking me to. How you asked me if the meal we cooked is too salty or not. How eager were you and let yourself stirring the food every time I stirred. How you would asked me if this was okay to add in the menu. How you teased me. How you reacted to me every time I got angry if things didn't go well. How you always wanted to make everything done for me without asking me first. I hope this lasts forever. I love you, always have love you. :)

Apart from that, two good news happened today! First one, I am now an HND holder. Yeay! Alhamdulillah! Terima Kasih Ya Allah! :D Our results came out at noon today. We only have 3 units for this final semester and Alhamdulillah my result is good (a Distinction and 2 merits). Couldn't believe that we got Distinction for SDP (Our final year project), we have done something remarkable. All of our hard works are really paid off! Thank you girls! ;)

Second, I attended a job interview this morning. Naddy suggested me this job, thank youuuu babe! I am looking forward to the second interview, because that Mister said he would text me maybe tomorrow and latest by Saturday. I never like interviews, I never like the moods happening during the interviews and I never like to do self-introduction. So yeah goodluck to me! Hope tomorrow will be a good day! I can't wait for 18th! :D You make me happy, you make me smile! You know who you are.

Story from the past.

2011-12-14T19:33:00.000+08:00

Hey! That's me! hehe! This was umm 6 years ago during national day rehearsal. Sorry for the bad quality, it was printed like that and I barely could see my face.

Anyway, this is a post about something that really shocked me and made me even more happier. This happened sometime in February 2005 during the national day, collaboration with some secondary school. I was studying in STPRI and he was at Hasan School. It was like a dream came true. Allah memang dari mula sudah mentakdirkan kitani untuk bersama. Alhamdulillah! He (my Ami) once told me a story about a girl he met during the national day rehearsal. He said he liked this girl, but always didn't get the chance to talk to her. The first time he saw was at Padang Belapan and the second time was at Padang SOAS. I teased him, maybe that was me. He just yeah right! :P He forgot already how the girl looked like so yeah, I just skipped that part. Recently, few days ago when I was rummaging my stuffs I found a piece of folded newspaper. When I unfolded it, I saw me printed on the Bulletin. Then I quickly took my phone and snap a picture of it and sent to him to show him that was me. He was like "Remember the girl I told you, it was actually you when I saw this picture!" I was smiling happily, didn't believe how that could possibly be me. I asked him many times was he really sure that was really really me and he said yes, confidently yes you are! I was like "Wowwwww!" He met me and knew me before I even knew him. I asked him why you didn't say hi or gave a smile at least, that would be great. He said he was too shy and he said he only watched me from far. I never realized there was someone watching me and that time I barely knew any boys. Budak STPRI kan! hehe! It just ended like that when the national day event ended. That's how he met me for the very very very first time.

Apart from that, I also knew him from a girlfriend of mine back then from sitxh form college in 2007. I am not sure if we are still friends because she was the first one who didn't want to talk to me anymore when she knew I was with him. I don't mind really and skip this part please. I was not really that close to her, I mean we only met and shared stories during registration period. She always told me about him, anything happened between them I knew. I didn't really listen much and cared who he was because he was her boyfriend at that time. I only listen and talk whatever I wanted to talk about because we were friends. Not more than that plus at that time I forgot his name and his personal facts. Why should I care enough? He was not mine yet. She also the caused of my dad losing trust at me for the first time. I didn't say she did something to me and she knew nothing about this. She was absent not attending school for like three days. I was looking for her actually why she kept not attending school. Our friends said she quit because she got an offer at another college. So I was like okay. But then one day when I got back home from school, my dad was really angry at me. He said anything he wanted to say and that hurts me a lot. He told me that your teacher has called me and told me that you skipped school for three days. That was totally not true! I was there at school, attended every class sessions. I cried for two days because of that. My dad didn't want to talk to me and when I tried to say anything he didn't want to listen. I tried telling him the truth but he denied. If that was not true, why your teacher are calling me? That was he said to me. The next day when I went to school, I asked my teacher and before I even opened my mouth my teacher already said sorry because she ticked a wrong name. Her name was above my name, so my teacher was confused. My teacher called my dad after that and explained to my day what was really happening. Alhamdulillah, I gained my trust back but I am still feeling that pain :') That's okay! at least I didn't do anything wrong. Why am I mentioning this, about her and my dad in this post?? Sorry for whoever read this :)

Then in 6th April 2009, we met again at Concepts Computer. We worked together in one roof. Day by day and months after months we became closer and much more closer. I won't write anything how we became closer because I did mention at my previous post already (I think!). By 18th July 2009, I accepted him to be my boyfriend and from that on, no one could ever gave me so much loving than he did and I trust him from the very bottom of my heart. I am so happy to be with him now! yeah you are amazing sayang! ohh yeah, my cousin also knew him because he was one class with her in Hasan. My cousin's boyfriend also has connection with him. Percaya lah dengan takdir Allah, sesungguhnya apa yang ditakdirkan adalah yang terbaik. I was in touch with him for a long time but Allah didn't want to give him to me so soon. The reason is Allah wants him to be my last, not the first. He came to me after six years and within that six years there's a lot of things had happened not to me only, it also to him. Alhamdulillah! Four more days is our 2 years and 5 months anniversary sayang! :D I know you read this :P Enjoy reading.

Forever ain't enough.

2011-12-11T02:14:00.000+08:00

I love you ;)

I miss you so much.

2011-11-29T22:52:00.001+08:00

Today is different without you around. I have been with you for 6 days in a row, not even missed one day and somehow, we missed it today. You know how much I miss you. In these 6 days; there are lots of moments happening. From nicest thing to the sweetest thing, you know what I meant it in here. I miss you really bad! I couldn't stand it not to see you everyday. :/ Let's meet tomorrow if there's nothing come in between. ;)

28th now! :D

2011-11-19T02:06:00.001+08:00

Alhamdulillah, we are still here together and loving each other very strongly. Life has been amazing since you are around. You are like the sun and the moon that brighten up my everyday life. Just like what you said to me today, "You are my sunshine in daylight and my moonlight in the night! My brightness in the darkness!". What I felt for you will never ever change. Because...

You are amazing, wonderful and loveliest person.

You will make it happen whatever promises you ever made.

and I am so sure one day, you will be my husband ;) Amin ya rabbal Alamin! May Allah answer this prayer.

Happy 28th Anniversary my love! ;)

:)

2011-11-16T17:37:00.001+08:00

That is beautiful!

I miss you.

2011-11-09T23:41:00.003+08:00

‎"Rindu bukan arah kata-kata atau cakap sayang,
inda semestinya inda cakap inda rindu"
- Ami.

I love you so much!

2011-10-22T21:58:00.002+08:00

That's the beauty when love is worth fighting for. Hai sayang :P

New memories captured today!

2011-10-10T03:25:00.000+08:00

Thanks sayang for today, for tonight, for surprising me with a birthday cake! He knows what's the best for me. I couldn't ask for more. He was being so sweet today, for the whole day indeed :P He made me cried, just for the little thing he did. I am so happy! Thanks to you guys, who helped him with this surprise idea. I don't have anything to say again. This year is the best! See you tomorrow love ;)

awwww :D

2011-09-29T17:26:00.000+08:00

I LOVE YOU! :D

Something to share :)

2011-09-26T18:20:00.000+08:00

MARRIAGE

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office, jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind. I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead. My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce. -- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband.

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.

All I really need for now.

2011-09-22T23:26:00.003+08:00

Proactiv please!!!

26th months... Wonderful!

2011-09-19T16:03:00.000+08:00

Happy 2 years 2 months sayang! :D
I love you so much!
Always believe in our love.

I miss you.....

2011-09-12T19:02:00.001+08:00

When we hit miri :P

I need you around.

2011-08-26T14:54:00.001+08:00

Another four days! I miss you already sayang!

This could be another memory.

2011-08-21T13:04:00.003+08:00

Ami sent me home the other night. Sekali ada kereta di belakang kami which is sama jalannya ke rumah ku.

Then...

I said: "Kereta belakang atu kan masuk simpang sini tu."
Ami said: "Arah rumah tani ani kah?"
I said: "Ahh.. awu."
Ami said: "Ehh tani ah... macam kahwin sudah "rumah tani"."
Both laughed together. Ami said those words tanpa sedar :P

Who could deny these butterflies?

2011-08-19T16:02:00.002+08:00

25th!!!!!

2011-08-18T05:52:00.003+08:00

Happy 25th months anniversary love!
You are wonderful, amazing and perfect!
I couldn't ask for more. :)

I miss you :/

2011-08-11T23:32:00.002+08:00

You are away again. For one week!
Please be back home sooner because I miss you really much! :'(

:/

2011-08-07T04:22:00.003+08:00

Just so you know, I created google+ last night just for the sake of WDP module. You can google it if you want to know more about it. It is a social network, just like facebook (I think it is) and it is more complicated. Their interfaces are just so bad. Maybe because I am a new user and I haven't got the chance to familiarize what is what. Well yeah, it somehow linked to my blog. I didn't know all my pictures in here would appeared in the google+ album pictures. So I deleted all my pictures and know what? It deleted all my pictures in here too :( If you see errors on previewing all my pictures here, just ignore it. I wouldn't have deleted them if I know this would happened.

Ramadhan tiba lagi.

2011-08-01T22:43:00.001+08:00

Selamat berpuasa everyone!
Selamat berpuasa sayang!
Jom terawih sama-sama :D

Get ready!

2011-08-01T01:53:00.000+08:00

Semester 5 starts tomorrow! :D

Happy 22nd sayang!

2011-07-30T18:06:00.002+08:00

Birthdays come only once a year. But a person like you brings life to hundreds every single day! I'm so glad that Allah sent you into this world. Your birthday is a reminder that Allah has given you one more year to bring about a change in the lives of the people around you. You are the most wonderful man I have ever met all my life. I promise to always stand by your side and support you whenever you need me. and again...
Happy Birthday, Sayang!

Alhamdulillah!

2011-07-20T20:57:00.001+08:00

I passed my resit examination! :D

2011-07-18T22:44:00.002+08:00

"I wish you the best anniversary a man could wish his girlfriend. My love throughout the years we've had our ups and downs but we stood by each other no matter what happened, we maintained this love. So on our anniversary of 2 years I just wanna say this thank you for everything and I'll always love you, for what you've done for me, you're my light and shine in my world. Happy 2 years anniversary love! *hugskisses*" - From Ami.

He said that, 2 roses equals to 2 years anniversary ;)
Thanks love for today <3

Happy that we met.

2011-07-16T03:24:00.001+08:00

Two more days and it will be two years. Isn't that amazing? :D

See me.

2011-07-12T11:35:00.000+08:00

I miss you so much!

Goodmorning sunshine :)

2011-07-06T09:14:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum wbt and good morning! :)

I miss him eh. We met last night, I drove and it was raining. We had dinner at Aneka Rasa and went to his house to get rest. Something came up last night so I had to go back home at 10, still early for me. Ami had to go to KB lastnight with his brothers and his daddy, his other brother was sick. Ami was too panic, I think this is the first time I see him that way. Relaks sayang, kajar-kajar bah tangan atu! :P Then, around midnight my mum was not feeling okay. She's got a very high fever and shivering along the way from home to hospital. Kesian mami. Alhamdulillah everything was fine :)

And tonight, I will be spending my night with you again. It's gonna be awesome! I'll see you later sayang!

Birthday girl!

2011-07-01T02:12:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday my dear muza!
You are always the best friend to me!
Thanks for belanja us makan ;)

to sayang, thanks a lot for today!
Walaupun kana tinggalkan saja tadi.
Kesian, urg atu bah gagas sudah kan liat transformers :P
and yes, it's JULY already! :D

:(

2011-06-21T22:07:00.002+08:00

I miss you like crazy... Each moment lasts an hour, each hour lasts a day, the clock is ticking so slow. :/

Counting days...

2011-06-21T02:40:00.001+08:00

Two more days sayang! I really can't wait! I miss you so bad!

You and I both loved.

2011-06-18T01:39:00.002+08:00

Happy 23rd months anniversary love! It is always awesome with you. I will update again later. ;) Let's hit the sack now baby boy! Take care there. I will meet you as soon as you get back home. I love you! I love you! I love you!

:(

2011-06-16T16:15:00.000+08:00

and again... for another week! I miss you already!

today is different.

2011-06-11T01:40:00.003+08:00

I miss you already! :(

Thinking about you all day.

2011-06-08T23:03:00.002+08:00

I can't wait to see you tomorrow. I miss you at the very most! One week you've been away, I had enough. Really. I miss everything about you. I am no one when you're not around. How are you? Have you been good lately? Did you sleep well? Did you eat right? Did you had headache? Is your knee and ankle been good? It's 11pm, I don't know if you're already asleep or not. I feel like I don't want to hit the sack tonight. I'm feeling excited to meet you. A week sayang! Why do you have to go so far away when I'm always need you here? I don't really know what's going on with you there. I can't even know a single thing. I understand, you told me already there will be no service at all. But why why why? I miss you! :S and I'm very worried. It's raining everyday, except for tonight. Alhamdulillah. See you tomorrow baby boy! :)

MMPR.

2011-06-08T00:52:00.003+08:00

Today wasn't a good day for me. Exam's result has came out and I have to resit one paper. Programming is not an easy subject. A no no subject to me. I cried when I knew my result wasn't as I expected. I was hoping too much that I might passed but it wasn't as it was. I know I sounded so sure, but it's good sometime to feel this way. Now I have to get up, do my best for this upcoming exam and won't do this silly mistakes again. This is my final year, I need to show and do the best of me to proceed to degree. I need to, for the sake of my family, for you and for us. For everything I faced now, Syukur Alhamdulillah. I did quite well at my other two subjects (Interface Design Principle & Multimedia Technologies), I got merits for both. I'm satisfied and got a pass for database. Alhamdulillah. I always need you here at times like this. I wish you were here, right here right now. Sorry sayang I resit again this time. I'll see you this Thursday perhaps? I miss you a lot!

Faraway.

2011-06-06T21:19:00.006+08:00

13/02/2010 = "... If balik kan jumpa ia kuu :( masa-masa cemani ani rindu sangat-sangat eh. I miss you"

14/02/2010 = "Emm.. berapa hari ani terkenang saja bah apa saja ku buat dikepala ku ia saja. Rindu kuu bah. Selalu mimpi-mimpi kan ia. Macam-macam mimpi atu :S ada jua baik ada jua inda."

15/02/2010 = "Aku rindu ia lagi.. selalu bah makin banyak :) cuti awam boring nada balik ah. Mimpi-mimpi sudah kan balik ah :S I miss you!"

16/02/2010 = "Almost everyday sudah mimpi kan ia :)"

28/02/2010 = "Hari ani, malam bulan cantik macam ia. Ingat-ingatan jua masa sama-sama mula-mula dulu sayang. Rindu~!"

01/03/2010 = "Aku rindu ia... Hari ani liat bulan saja. Ingatkan ia. Macam-macam ingatan atu.. :)"

03/03/2010 = "Bila rindu aku tengok bulan :)"

26/03/2010 = "... Aku banar-banar rindu ia, sedih ku kenang-kenangkan masa sama-sama :( Hmm~ Harap-harap sabtu depan kami balik dapat jua ku jumpa ia..."

28/03/2010 = "... Inda ku sabar kan jumpa ia balik ani"

29/03/2010 = "Aku rindu ia sangat-sangat. Bulan lagi lawa rinduu~ masa ni kita nada sama-sama macam selalu :S kan 2 bulan nada sama ia sunyi rasanya, if kenang-kenang keluar jua air mata :'("

01/04/2010 = "... Lawa bulan malam ani, tiap malam wah ku meliat, inda ku tau ia. Setiap kali ku meliat aku rindu banar kan ia. If inda meliat rindu jua tapi if meliat lagi tia makin kuat rindu atu :)."

These are what was written down by him in his book, his so-called diary when he was away for few months last year. I cried the first time I read this. This is what I feel right now, you're so far away. I miss you!

Tomorrow is another new day.

2011-06-06T00:41:00.002+08:00

Three more days!
This is not right, this is not cool, this is no fun!
I don't really know what to do. I still can't contact you at all.
I need you around. Always, every time, every moment,
every second, every minute and every hour.
I'm going to sleep now. Goodnight sayang! I miss you :)

I need to get excited.

2011-06-05T00:30:00.000+08:00

Four more days!

sleep pretty please.

2011-06-04T01:27:00.003+08:00

It's 1.28am, i can't sleep. I miss you too much! I can't contact you at all, i don't get used to this. I'm counting the days. I'm sure you also feel like the way I do. Come home sayang! I don't know what to do with one week without you around. I really miss you :( my day today was miserable. be good my baby boy. 5 more days! be patience.

I just can't stop...

2011-05-30T00:29:00.002+08:00

I miss him! I miss him so much! I met him almost everyday now and I still miss him! So much activities we did together recently but I'm so lazy to write it out tonight. Hehe. Maybe I will post it in some other time, maybe okay. I posted this just want to let him know again that I miss him very very much. Ah! I'm feeling so cold tonight, and I need a comfy hug. A comfy hug from you? :P I'll see you tomorrow again sayang! :)

Sleepless night.

2011-05-23T03:32:00.003+08:00

Funny how we both could stay up wide awake this late just to play sims 3. I had installed the expansion pack of late night three days ago and know what, I can't stop playing it. Ami took all his time just to create and edit his house and me doing the adventures stuff. I'm looking for another expansion pack. I already have the world adventures and the one I just mentioned. I want another one! This game is such an addiction! :D

To sayang, let's sleep now! See you tomorrow! Been three days ehh! I miss you so bad! :/

1 year and 10 months!

2011-05-18T14:37:00.002+08:00

Happy 22 months to us! Everything happens between us is totally amazing, no one could ever imagine this and no one will ever know the feelings of this. We made it this far. I know sometimes we might have a hard time, yeah some sort of that but every time that happen we patiently work them together. All the loves and cares you have given me from the first day we knew each other until today is what I cherished the most! I may sound cliche in this but screw it. I don't care, this is how I feel and this is how you feel. I hope our relationship will stay strong forever! Amin! I need you in this life. I'm so happy with you. You make me happy all the time. You never fail to put a smile on my face. You always here for me. You tried so hard to do everything I want, that's the most I appreciated. I couldn't ask for more. You remind me there's a bigger world out there. The words you say and the things you do show me there's more to this life than what I've come to know and accept. I could see our future in you. I'm very glad that I have you right here and right now.

Happy 22 months again my love! :D I love you always! I can't stop falling in love with you. Big heart for you. I just can't wait to spend my night with you later. 7.25! :P

Chocolates!

2011-05-17T14:48:00.006+08:00

I came acrossed this one facebook lastnight that sells chocolates which are not being sold here. I added that facebook terus. I'm not intended to buy any actually, but the more I view all their albums the more I wanted to buy. I told Ami I was craving for them.

He said: "Beli tah kalau mau".
I said: "Inda mau, malas ku kan jumpa orangnya mengambil apa".
He said: "Beli saja".
I said: "Banar ni?"
He said: "Bah manasaja ia"
I said: "Aku inda tau ni dimana tempatnya"
He said: "Aku saja ambilkan"
I was like yeah! :D I picked some only because there aren't many choices.

Then this morning he went out met the owner who sells the chocolates and collected them. Thanks sayang!

While on his way home,
He asked: "Mau ku hantar chocolates ani?"
I replied: "Inda, esok saja makan sama-sama"
He asked: "Banar?"
I said: "Awu esok saja makan sama-sama" hehe!

And then, he took a picture of it on purpose and sent it to me. Hujung sekali dibuatnya "Yummy~" ehh! Tau sudah taisliur ah :P

I can't wait for tomorrow, our special day!

Happy holiday!

2011-05-10T22:54:00.001+08:00

My holiday officially starting today! :)

All the things...

2011-04-30T11:46:00.000+08:00

I do... :')

Thank you!

2011-04-26T15:32:00.003+08:00

He bought this for me two days ago :D for our anniversary!
Thanks sayang.. I appreciate this :')
and I will wear it this thursday :P

Tomorrow.

2011-04-21T01:59:00.002+08:00

I can't wait for tomorrow!
Hope to see you as soon as you get back home.
I miss you soooooo much sayang!

Our happy moments!

2011-04-18T15:50:00.005+08:00

HAPPY 21ST MONTHS ANNIVERSARY SAYANG!

Let's our love colors the sky! :D
I love you, forever and always!

I'm missing you, really! You're not around starting today. Hmm.. well it just for few days anyway and you will be back by Thursday. It's no fun at all. I'm going to take it easy. One thing that kills me is you can't contact me at all. I need you. Moreover, we won't be spending our anniversary today. I'm feeling kind of sad though but that's okay, I understand that. :') We never (seldomly) missed our day, unless there is something important like now.

At least I was happy about last night, thank you sayang! We were together the whole day until midnight. Not much of going out to somewhere yesterday, most of the time we were just staying at his house.

Just be good wherever you are! Come home sooner :)

Missing you...

2011-04-11T00:28:00.004+08:00

Inda tinggal bah ambuk ku and bantal atu time main game. hehe. :P

I miss you so much sayang! :') I'll meet you tomorrow okay!

6th April 2009.

2011-04-06T00:52:00.003+08:00

I remembered this one moment,
this one moment on this day... :D

Stress, stress and STRESS!

2011-04-01T05:28:00.003+08:00

Please be good!

Dateline of my FIVE assignments and TWO tests. I don't have plenty of time left. I need to get back on track. Hopefully I can get through this. InsyaAllah! :')

Capri-sonne.

2011-03-30T23:56:00.004+08:00

He bought this for me :P hehe!

Sebelum ia hantar aku balik rumah tadi, kami singgah kadai hindustan :P Singgah sekajap beli makanan and minuman pasal lapar. Sekali masa kan mengambil minuman atu, aku mengambil capri-sonne strawberry.

Ami: "Mau beli yang sekotak?"
Me: "Inda payah tah".
Ami: "Untuk batanya sekolah" cali :P
Me: "Di koperasi ITB ada jua berjual ni, sama lagi harganya."
Ami: "Beli tah saja, di skulah mun ia banyak kali membeli berapa sudah tu"
Me: "Jangantah kali *thinking*"

Ami tanya hindustan arah cashier berapa harganya sekotak. Kana bagitau $4.30.

Ami: "Membeli?"
Me: "Manasaja.. hehe"

Masa kan balik rumah:

Me: "Habis ni karang minuman ani if dorang dirumah nampak"
Ami: "Simpan lah. Malam ani taruh satu di icebox, esok taruh lagi"
Me: "Ohh... hehe"

So sweet of you. Thanks sayang! :D

:D

2011-03-30T17:51:00.002+08:00

I'm going to spend my night with you later! I can't wait! Hehe. Ia aga aku balik dari ITB pulang tadi, but inda siuk sekajap saja ah :P I see you sayang!

I sayang you always!

2011-03-26T01:56:00.002+08:00

I will always here for you! :)

hmm......

2011-03-25T20:09:00.002+08:00

Summit Spring Summer Collection!

2011-03-25T17:07:00.006+08:00

I want them all so bad! :S

Missing you crazy!

2011-03-24T22:17:00.002+08:00

Come home pleaseeeeee! :(

hmm...

2011-03-24T14:57:00.002+08:00

:'( I miss you really bad!

The best place.

2011-03-24T13:31:00.001+08:00

ITB Silver Jubilee Dinner Trailer.

2011-03-20T20:52:00.000+08:00

Money and happiness are two different things.

2011-03-19T19:52:00.003+08:00

This article is from People Magazine. This couple right here is Allen and Violet Large. Allen is 75 and Violet is 78. They met in 1964. Ever since 1983, they have purchased two lottery tickets every week. Last year, Violet called the lottery hotline to check out the winning numbers and turns out they won. They won $11.2 million dollars and guess what they did with it? They donated it all to doctors, their own country, family and kept none for themselves.

They say they are content with their ‘87 Dodge Diplomat Suburban and their 148 year old Victorian home.

Here’s a quote from Violet near the end:
“Money can’t buy happiness.
We have everything we need; I have Allen and he has me.”

A rose from you.

2011-03-19T19:23:00.003+08:00

He gave me a rose last night for our 20th months anniversary! Speechless! Didn't expect 100% he would give me again. Yesterday afternoon, I watched him played futsal at Dewan JKR. While sitting with him, I randomly checked his wallet and saw his money were only few dollars left. I asked him where his money gone, and he said to me "Eh.. Jangantah tau tu." I felt offended. I just kept quiet after that and said okay. Maybe he realized that my face turned to curious look, then he quickly said "Aku taruh dalam kereta". I only replied "Ohh". One thing again, he kept going to his car. I asked him why, he said he's checking his phone. I believed him because he left his other phone in the car. Later that night, exactly at 7.25 he surprised me! I told him I was offended of what he said earlier. He told me again why he kept checking his phone in the car was actually checking out that rose. Hehe. Sorry sayang :P I love it though! Sweet like always! ;) I miss you already!

Happy 20th Anniversary my Ami! ;)

2011-03-18T00:01:00.004+08:00

Another great day has come! Happy 20th Anniversary too my love! I received a short text from you just now.

"Happy 20th months anniversary sayang! 4 bulan lagi sayang, inda terasa jua sayang. Mudahan kekal selamanya sayang, inda sangka sayang. Hehe." There are more actually. Malu ku kan taruh sini banarnya :P Thank you sayang! You made me smile happily! I'm so happy. Guess I will sleep with a smile on my face tonight. hehe. I will always pray for us sayang. Mudahan kita berkekalan selamanya! Amin! We go for it yes? I love you, always always always with all my heart!

I miss you already!

2011-03-15T00:51:00.002+08:00

I love you!

far away.

2011-03-12T22:36:00.003+08:00

He's out there somewhere so far away. Be good you! I see you on monday, I can't wait. :) I miss you so much already! I met him before he went, he called me up if I was already done myself. There was no planned at all he would be picking me up and sent me to Naddy's house. I've told him earlier that my mum will sent me, but yeah you know.. hehe, I was so happy to meet him. Even though we already spent the days before today. :P Anyway, I miss you so bad RUZAINIKU!!

I want you, only you!

Eternally.

2011-03-08T00:10:00.001+08:00

If your love was all I had in this life;
that would be enough until the end of time.

If I have known earlier...

2011-03-06T22:56:00.002+08:00

Last night I went out dinner with Ami at this one restaurant and menyesal eh order espresso ani. RUGI! I asked Ami if he wants it or not, he said "Bah manasaja kan merasa jua ku" sekalinya eh malas ku cakap. Ami pun sasak. Hehe! But hyper though malam atu :P and today after dari jemputan arah my dad's side, me and Ami tidur saja. mengapa kan tu? lalah jua! :P I miss my phone!

.................

2011-03-03T00:17:00.000+08:00

I miss you so much!

Your song,

2011-02-28T21:48:00.002+08:00

It's a little bit funny
This feeling inside.
I'm not one of those who can
Easily hide.

I don't have much money

But boy if I did
I'd buy I big house where
We both could live.

So excuse me forgetting
But these things I do.
See I've forgotten if
They're green or they're blue.

Anyway the thing is...
What I really mean...
Yours are the sweetest eyes
I've ever seen.

And you can tell everybody
This is your song.
It maybe quite simple but
Now that it's done
I hope you don't mind
That I put down in words
How wonderful life is
Now you're in the world.

If I was a sculptor
But then again no.
Or a girl who makes potions in
A traveling show.
I know it's not much but
It's the best I can do.
My gift is my song and
This one's for you.

What are words by Chris Medina.

2011-02-28T18:49:00.002+08:00

Seriously, his story about his true love and his girlfriend touched my heart. :(

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight

And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

A busy day but still it was lovely.

2011-02-27T00:51:00.003+08:00

I miss my man already! He was with me for the whole day, not that he was with me all the time. He kept meeting me today, it was because I asked for it :P and really sorry made you came late to work this afternoon. I woke up late today at 11am, I didn't know what made me very sleepy this morning. I was so lazy to move my butt off from my bed. Getting ready to meet the girls. Got video shooting for our video assignment at Mangrove Paradise Resort. Found out that I had no transport to go there so I called Ami to pick me up and sent me to Gadong. My friends were not there yet, so Ami waited for a while just for me. I asked him to get to work or else he would be really late, but he kept waiting with me until my friend came. That's sweet sayang! It was different today. Like farah said, lots of smiles and laughter. With you also sayang :) After all the video shoots was done, we went to CA Mohamed yayasan to fill our empty stomach. As I mention earlier I got no transport, Ami fetched me again and sent me home. Getting ready to go out again. I went to Empire for the Malam Sastera Islam with my siblings and Ami too. My siblings won the Peraduan Tulisan Seni Khat Jawi for Saudara Baru, how lucky they were and I didn't won any. The prizes were so huge. Too bad! :( After that function, we stopped by at Pantai Jerudong. It was so windy, dark and the stars shined so beautiful. My brother wanted to buy stopper but it was half past ten, all the stored might be closed. So Ami borrowed his stopper instead. Went to Ami's house to take his stopper. Then went home. Thanks sayang, you just made my day. I love you! :)

and I am lucky to have you...

2011-02-25T16:12:00.003+08:00

Last night, Ami said...
"Beruntung ni ia ada boyfriend macam aku, siap kana ikatkan rambut".
Funny! :P

I just close my eyes and dream of you.

2011-02-21T21:12:00.004+08:00

I miss you really bad sayang! I miss you! I miss you! I miss you! I couldn't stand a day without seeing you, without having you around. I get used to see you almost everyday nowadays. I spend my whole time with you but when it comes to not having the chance to see you even just for one day, it make me miserable. I know you feel me baby :P

...

2011-02-19T00:48:00.000+08:00

and that's it...

You always the best.

2011-02-18T10:28:00.009+08:00

Our day comes again.
Happy 19th Anniversary My Baby Boy!
For once in my life, I don't have to try to be happy. When I'm with you, it just happens. There are reasons why we met, reasons for good. We still have more to learn, more to experience and of course, more loves in each others' heart.
I love you so much!

I'll see you at 2 later. I just can't wait, I miss you sayang! :)

Love accepts everything :)

2011-02-13T00:04:00.002+08:00

I miss you so much!

2011-02-09T23:38:00.004+08:00

Taken at Mangrove Paradise Resort.

We met last night and funny thing was he waited me at SIMPANG. :P I was surprised it was really him walking along the street way. I asked him why he did that. He replied me, saja-saja~ I ran out of credit last night, so I told him to on his whatsapp. That would be easier for me to let him know I'm already arrived at his house and I also asked him to look around for my car. Sekalinya kan.... hehe :P Terkejut ku berabis ehh ia berdiri disana atu, tiba-tiba bah orang yang berdiri atu suruh stop kereta. Fikir orang mana kah kan apa, rupanya ia. Katanya lagi kan mun aku akhir ia menunggu di bus stand, sikit lagi ah sayang :P kan sampai di bus stand atu sudah, baik jua ku sampai awal. Ia cakap ia saja-saja berjalan, mula-mula ke kedai kaling ia then aku alum ada berjalan lagi ia ke depan sekali aku alum ada berjalan lagi ia sampai ke depan. Payah ni cemani ani~ hehe :P I miss you already sayang!

I love you ;)

2011-02-04T23:56:00.005+08:00

Spending my time with you is the best way to cheer me up.

2011-01-26T20:26:00.002+08:00

I MISS YOU! REALLY BAD! Be good sayang, see you after 2 days!

Disappointed with myself. :(

2011-01-20T01:39:00.003+08:00

Our special day!

2011-01-18T23:24:00.002+08:00

Here comes our day again! :) Happy 18th Months Anniversary Sayang! I will always always always love you, deepest from my heart. Words can't explain how much I love you. But in this short amount of time, I hope you realize and feel that my love for you is always real. With you is where I want to be for the rest of my life, because I found someone who loves me just for me and you give me all the reason in the world to believe that you won't hurt me in anyway. I feel safer than ever before whenever you wrapped up your arms around me. When you stare into my eyes, it's a feeling I can't ignore. When I am close to you I am overwhelmed with happiness. You're what I've been waiting for my whole life, someone I can share with love. It's a whole new experience to me and I don't want to lose you. I will fight for you no matter what it takes.

I just came home, I spent my lovely night with you. Thanks for today sayang! You surprised me again with a rose exactly at 7.25pm. I'm speechless! All I could say was tumbuk ia karang and laughed. :P I didn't expect you would buy me something, yeah you know I love flowers. Hehe. :)

I LOVE YOU SAYANG! ;)

the way you make me feel, all time around :)

2011-01-15T21:09:00.005+08:00

My Ruzaini is a magical man, a serious person when I first met him, then he fell in love and he stole away my heart at best! I love you sayang!

I put some words that may sounds cliche to you, but that's how I feel strongly towards you.

With you, everything you have and everything you do,
you always make me feel so special,
you always make me feel new and,
you make me feel so loved.

My eyes would light up every time you enter a room, that's because I love seeing you around. I remember how things used to be before we got together. Every time you were around, anywhere it could be as long as I could see you with my eyes, this butterflies on my stomach couldn't stop from flying. I tried to make it calm and it just couldn't. For one time you smiled back at me, I felt my world stopped for a second and that's the moment I fell more on you.

You make me smile, you make me happy and you make me cry every time we are together. With you around, it seems like it is the perfect place. I don't care where we go, as long we are together everything can be perfect. I love the way you can make me laugh for absolutely no reason at all. I laughed a lot, even on a little things you said. Your seriousness may sometimes worry me, but I don't mind if you behave that way. You are you, and I love you just the way you are. You always serious by the way. :P

For most of part...
I love to see you smile, happy, talks a lot, laugh, gets angry and even cry, knowing that I was the caused of all your emotions. That's the feeling that really connects us in many ways. No matter how bad things really are, you always make them better. No matter what I do, you will be there to catch me when I am about to fall. I love the fact that you would hold me close when I am sad and you would wipe my tears away.

I just want you to know, even though we sometimes may fight and argue (well we actually don't argue and fight much. :P), I will always love you.
Always, with all my heart. xoxo!

A night could turn out to be an amazing night.

2011-01-09T13:19:00.002+08:00

I went to ICC last night with him for the consumer fair thingy. Nothing special about it, and it was kinda boring. Good thing he was there with me, at least I'm not bored. Too many people were there. Like very. Ami couldn't stand it. He doesn't always like crowded places, he hates it a lot. I know! :P

We were there until 9, then straight headed to Times Square to get some food. I drove last night, he didn't drive because ia ngaleeeeeeh :P hehe! Then 10.30, went to his house and had some rest. We both were tired especially him, he had a rough week this week. Kesian sayang ehh iatah tu :P I went home at 12. I didn't want to go home actually but I had to. :P

(:

2011-01-06T13:30:00.002+08:00

I wish for things... things that always good. (:

2011

2011-01-01T01:25:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year Everyone!
Happy New Year Sayang!
Thanks for today and tonight, you spent all your time just to be with me.
I had a good time with you and sorry for being you know why sayang... (:

May this 2011 brings us more happiness, more wealthy, more love and of course, no matter what will happen we must stay together until the end of time.
Alhamdulillah for everything!

New year!

2010-12-27T21:34:00.004+08:00

2011 is just around the corner. I just can't wait to finish my attachment and have holidays. :) and... Let's spend our new year eve together. Yes sayang? :P

Year 2010 has taught me so much. From the beginning till the end. Lots of things had happened along the way especially the moments with him. ;) From January until August, he was away for that long. Then in April was our one year friendship. Next, July was our first year anniversary and your birthday. Every months in 2010 has something that worthwhile to remember and I cherish every moments with you. :) Alhamdulillah you made my year beautiful sayang! I'm still alive and ready to live for another year! :P

Let's open a new page and start writing an amazing story. Bismillahirahmanirrahim! :)

True facts.

2010-12-23T09:48:00.001+08:00

17th months already :P

2010-12-20T11:02:00.002+08:00

I didn't know it was taken. :P

and... Happy 17th months anniversary again baby boy! I am happy happy happy with you. You are amazing, wonderful, awesome, sweet, nice! Your love is one of a kind and that is for me. You know why sayang! ;)

I miss you!

2010-12-14T23:39:00.002+08:00

You made me cry tonight :(
because of..... :P hehe!
I miss you already baby boy! I'll see you again tomorrow yes? ;)

Couldn't ask for more.

2010-12-04T17:09:00.008+08:00

"I want you to fall for me so hard, that you become so scared to lose me. I want you to dwell in my existence where a day without me you would feel very incomplete. I want you to tell me that you have been thinking about me all day. I want you to fall as hard for me, as I’ll fall for you. I want you to tell all your friends and to all your families, there she is; my beautiful one. I want you to remember me always. I want you to chase after me when I push you away. I want you to pull me back when I’m trying to leave. I want to feel the reflexes of my own words. I want you to keep me grounded when I’ve done wrong. I want you to be relentless. I don’t want any constrictions in my chest, but the bones that shapes our interest. I want you to hug me every time you want. I want you to fall so hard for me, that you realize you’ve never ever felt this way about someone before. And if I left one day, I would want everything we ever shared to make you remember me. I want all the things we did, said, and never got to; to make you remember me by. I wanna be the reason why you slept with your phone on your hand because you was waiting for my reply. I want you to call me anytime you want just to say I miss you and I love you. I want to you to make a lot of surprises just for me. I want you to do everything you could just to see me smile even if I am having a bad day. I want to know you’ll fall so hard for me that if a song we shared came up on the radio it would make you have this sudden sharp pain in your chest and in those fleeting seconds, I hope you know how much you fell in love with me and how you can’t live without me. I hope then, you’ll come chasing after me. It’s selfish I know, but I want to be the only girl you have your eyes on. I want to be the only girl you actually fell for. I actually want to be the girl you end up with, through marriage and forever. I want to know you will fight for me for the rest of your life."

I won't ask any of these anymore because you already showed me and made me believe that you would do everything to keep me, to fight for me and yes, to love me forever.

I love you sayang! I'm very very happy with you! ;)

Hello December! :)

2010-12-01T11:11:00.002+08:00

I want to spend my end and new year with you. ;)

Finally.. I found a man that I trust the most (:

2010-11-23T22:28:00.006+08:00

Sweet love, sweet love
Trapped in your love
I've opened up, unsure I can trust
My heart and I were buried in dust
Free me, free us

You're all I need when I'm holding you tight
If you walk away I will suffer tonight

I found a man I can trust
And boy, I believe in us
I am terrified to love for the first time
Can you see that I'm bound in chains
I finally found my way
I am bound to you
I am bound to you

So much, so young
I've faced on my own
Walls I built up became my home
I'm strong and I'm sure there's a fire in us
Sweet love, so pure

I catch my breath with just one beating heart
And I brace myself, please don't tear this apart

I found a man I can trust
And boy, I believe in us
I am terrified to love for the first time
Can't you see that I'm bound in chains
I finally found my way
I am bound to you
I am bound to

Suddenly the moment's here
I embrace my fears
All that I have been carrying all these years
Do I risk it all
Come this far just to fall, fall

Oh, I can trust
And boy, I believe in us
I am terrified to love for the first time
Can you see that I'm bound in chains
And finally found my way
I am bound to you

I am,
Ooh, I am
I'm bound to you

Christina Aguilera - Bound to you.

You're amazing just the way you are!

2010-11-19T15:36:00.003+08:00

Bruno Mars - Just the way you are Cover By Boyce Avenue. :)

Our 16th Months!

2010-11-19T00:35:00.002+08:00

Everything you do and everything you say, nothing can make me love you less.

It's our anniversary again! Happy 16th Anniversary Baby boy! :D
I will always love you, for eternally.

Is this love? Yes it is. :)

2010-11-17T00:39:00.002+08:00

Dum,Dum Dum,padaadadada~

1,2,3 you are for me,
4,5,6 you make me fix,
All these crazy happenstances,
But you just smile like nothing happened.

7,8,9 you are mine,
10,11,12 you made me in love,
all the things you do,the things you do.

Your love is like a pinch of sugar,
So sweet it gave me cavities,
You melt me like a marshmallow,
You hugged me like i'm your pillow,
Don't make me feel so Mellow,
When you're acting all shallow,
You're making me swallow,
all these weird feelings... inside.

A,B,C you made me sing,
D,E,F these memories you left... behind.
Held my hand to the future,
You made me stronger than before.

G,H,I you open my eyes,
J,K,'L' Stands for 'love',
Have god send you from above? from above.

Is this love? :)

Smiling inside and out.

2010-11-12T22:49:00.002+08:00

Yeah, believe me I would do anything just to see you smile and happy. :)

These pictures says my heart. :)

2010-11-09T12:56:00.003+08:00

Yes, it has always been you sayang. I miss you! :)

Ami, my handsome man!

2010-11-06T00:37:00.004+08:00

Set on this boy and I just can't show it.
I'm taking my time 'cause I don't wanna blow it,
But I can't get him out of my mind.
He looks one way and I look another.
All my friends say "Please, don't bother."
But I can't see the truth when I'm blind.

I know it's real

The older that I get,
The less that I regret,
And baby, it's 'cause of you.
Since the day we met,
You know I won't forget,
That baby, my Amy's true.

He smiles like a new sunrise.
His funny laugh was so surprising,
But I can't get him off of my mind.
He lights up a room like a full moon shinin'.
I try to look cool,
But he's not buying it
'Cause boys like these are so hard to find.

Now I've made up my mind,
And I'll move mountains to be with you.
I'm done taking my time,
And in the end,
I always knew
(Always knew)
Always knew

The older that I get,
The less that I regret,
And baby, it's 'cause of you.
Since the day we met,
You know I won't forget,
That baby, my Amy's true.

Oh Amy, A-A-Amy
You make everything alright.
Oh Amy, A-A-Amy
You've changed my life.
Amy, A-A-Amy
You make everything
Alright

By Allstar Weekend, the title of this song is AMY!

I found this song by random. It's actually for a girl but since the title of the song is Amy I don't mind dedicating to you and I edit the part that should be him not her. :P I wish this song could be dedicated to boys too then it would be great to listen. Yeah... you get what I mean. :)